I applied for a two Library Tech jobs a couple of weeks ago and I landed an interview last Friday. The positions are at Nova Scotia Community College, the same position at two different campuses. I felt pretty good about my resume, considering it's been 4 years since I wrote one (how can that much time have passed!!) And the positions are nearly identical to my job at Queen's, so I knew I could easily do the work. I've been thinking about going back to work for a while, but like nearly all moms I was torn.
I don't worry about putting my kids in daycare, I know that they will be treated well and they will excel wherever we find childcare for them. My concerns are mostly that I will miss them and I especially don't look forward to the hectic lifestyle of two working parents. I'm basically afraid of the change. It seems so drastic. I will miss our days spent in pj's until 8am (or later), going to the library, the grocery store, the gym, our regular play dates. I know I can still do these things if I'm working, but it won't be the same.
When I got the phone call for the interview, the first thing I did was look on Kijiji for childcare. When I called the YWCA for information on finding accredited home care, I told the woman on the phone that I had been thinking about doing home child care. I had thought about it a few times in the past, but all of the sudden with the potential of a "real" job, I was desperate to explore the option of a home-based business.
So now the woman from the YWCA is coming on Monday to talk about what is involved and to see if our house would be appropriate. They offer support, training, a toy-lending library, the whole she-bang. If I don't get the NSCC job, I do have this as an option. Or maybe if I do get the job, I might still want to follow this option. My thoughts have been swinging wildly back and forth from one camp to the other. One minute I want to stay at home, 20 minutes later I want to go to work.
Even though the money would be better with a "real" job, the thought of home-based childcare still holds a lot of appeal. I knew I always wanted to stay at home with my kids. Really, you only get so much time with them when they are little, right? Five to six years and then they are in school, then it's after-school activities, music, sports on the weekends, hanging out with friends, then BOOM they graduate and leave. *sigh*.
Although some days are so frustrating I wish I could put them into day care until they are 18, most days I wouldn't give up staying at home for even the highest salary.
Does this mean the decision is made? Maybe. No. Yes. I don't know. I guess I'm going to wait and see if I get the job offer and go from there.
I will keep you posted.
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